Study English 24.06.17

 

 

Sometimes I fall into a lazy hole.

In there, I feel I want to do nothing at all.

what I do is only watching youtube in my soft and comfy bed

and going to the restroom to dump my water every 2 hours. that's all.

some people said this is a burnout.

If i can call it burnout, I used to meet burnout many times.

when I'm on that status, I just think I'm too afraid of doing perfectly,

to keep being nice, to handles tasks in time, to keep studying, not to be lazy,,, etc.

I aslo think that isn't it okay to be a little bit lazy or take a rest today...? i've been doing great so far....

It means, I've takenover many things, like preparing immigration, working out, working, socializing...

If I don't follow them, I would be called 'a lazy guy', 'a failure' or 'a loser' in society and community.

What I'm afraid of is not to be called like that, but I'm afraid of that I could miss the better future for me.

If my English is not good for getting a job in abroad, I would miss the chance to live in foreign counties.

If my body is not good, I would get sick and not overcome stress from people and work.

If I'm satisfied with now, I wouldn't be a better person or meet a better future.

so just keep running and pushing me myself.

I know I need my own time to focus on me myself only so that I can take care of my heart and spirit.

I can say, I can get an energy by meditation.

then I should ask me myself, WHEN can you satisfy with your life??

Even If I succeed to immigrate, I would also push myself again, for ex, work hard to earn money or join many community for socializing.

When???

so I had to answer to this question.

I say, right after immigration, right after starting to live in Canada, right after living as me myself.

Then I will take a rest and balance life and work, enjoy my hobbies and meeting people, love my one as much as I've been waited for a long time.

 

 

 

 

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Sometimes I fall into a lazy hole.

In there, I feel like doing nothing at all.

All I do is watch YouTube in my soft and comfy bed and go to the restroom every 2 hours. That's all.

Some people call this a burnout.

If I can call it a burnout, I've encountered it many times.

When I'm in that state, I just think I'm too afraid of doing things perfectly, of staying nice, of handling tasks on time, of keeping up with my studies, and not being lazy.

I also think, isn't it okay to be a little lazy or take a rest today? I've been doing great so far...

It means I've taken on many things, like preparing for immigration, working out, working, and socializing.

If I don't follow through, I would be called 'a lazy guy', 'a failure', or 'a loser' in society and my community.

What I'm afraid of is not being called these names, but that I might miss a better future for myself.

If my English isn't good enough for getting a job abroad, I would miss the chance to live in a foreign country.

If my body isn't in good shape, I could get sick and not handle the stress from people and work.

If I'm satisfied with now, I wouldn't become a better person or reach a better future.

So, I keep running and pushing myself.

I know I need time to focus on myself, to take care of my heart and spirit.

I can say, I get energy from meditation.

Then I ask myself, WHEN can you be satisfied with your life?

Even If I succeed in immigrating,I would push myself again, for example, working hard to earn money or joining many communities to socialize.

When?

So, I had to answer this question.

I say, right after immigration, right after starting to live in Canada, right after living as myself.

Then I will rest and balance life and work, enjoy my hobbies and meeting people, and love my partner as much as I've waitied for a long time.